Category: The Inner Workings

Short, potentially scary, insights as to what goes on in my brain.

June 23, 2018 / / Alpine Notes

Is it possible to de-assess myself?  Stress is weighing on me, heavier than the sixty pounds of gear and food I am shouldering up this…

May 27, 2018 / / The Inner Workings

“What the fuck are you doing?” “God damn it.” “Fucking A Spaulding…” Those words roll off my tongue with an alacrity I didn’t know I…

February 10, 2018 / / Climbing
November 23, 2017 / / East Africa

It is easy to write about white sand beaches that stretch on for miles, empty of people, dotted with thatched roof bungalows and beach front…

August 23, 2017 / / Climbing

I can feel the vertical crease between my eyebrows getting deeper the longer I squint upward.  My partially closed eyes are not due to me…

June 29, 2017 / / Climbing
May 21, 2017 / / Place

Blades of purple peaks, like the backs of lumbering dinosaurs, break the horizon, giving perspective to an immense flatness. Wind barrels across the nothingness, faster…

April 30, 2017 / / Family
November 9, 2016 / / The Inner Workings
November 7, 2016 / / Family

1 December 2015–It is my time. Over the years it has always been the same.  Never secretive, but usually alone.  It just feels better that…

September 30, 2016 / / Climbing

18 September 2015–Aahh the feelings of inadequacy that come with not being able to send the project. Not good enough. Wanting it too bad. People…

August 24, 2016 / / Horses
July 20, 2016 / / On Being a NOLS Instructor
June 5, 2016 / / Climbing

As with so many of my vertically inclined endeavors, this one seemed doubtful from the start.  It was to be a short afternoon of clipping…

May 7, 2016 / / Alpine Notes

It started the same way and ended the same way.  Driving in, the road was still rough.  Walking out the beers were still in the…